Confession #509

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How can one forget something that happened to them,changed their lives permanently? Iam losing it.Am a mother.But I’m not a happy woman.I hate myself so much.Iam ugly.Bad dental formula. Legs slightly knocking when I walk.And the worst thing which is traumatizing me, I underwent fgm,This happened when I was still in primary school and the whole thing is so fresh in my mind.So many years later,I feel so inferior, I hate my mum.Anytime this comes back,I remember she’s the one who accepted to let me go through the cut.My husband is a cheat who I feel deserves to cheat because iam less of a woman.I have bad tempers.My skin never glows.My entire life is pathetic. I feel bad.so bad if anyone can really understand me.I feel like abusing my mother for making me go thru fgm against my wish.I feel terrible.I’ve Googled all possible ways to forget this but it is not going away.I’ve read about a reconstructive surgery to reverse the cut but I don’t know where and how it is done.I don’t even have money to pay for it.Iam tired.I always try my best but things are not working.I’m a failure.Iam not a woman,iam not like everyone else.I don’t know what becomes of me.😢😢iam losing!

May 9, 2020 |
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

Chances are that you are not as ugly as you think…and by the way, having a c**t is not such a big deal…Kwanza you have a husband…do you know how many uncut women are husband less. And by the way, your husband cheats just because he wants to but uses your weaknesses against you so that you can blame yourself. In short, jipende coz honestly, your attitude is horrible

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

stay positive. from tomorrow smile and be happy. try it you will see a big difference

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

First dont blame ur mum be4 something she culd not change, remember ur not tha onlly woman who has gone through tha cutt… Ur mother also pass there did she become ugly? Did sh not gave birth to you? Wait a minute why call urself ugly just becoz of customs done to yu? Think girl stop all those negative thoughts ad think positive… Ur mama loves u ad just becoz u got cutts doesnt make u a less woman…

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

I thought the Bible says we are created in the image and likeness of God! Imagine you are in the image of our creator!
Just don’t mind how people view you… Apparently you should be appreciating that image and likeness of God!
Did you know there are people wishing to have any kind of legs koz they can’t Walk!
Whatever happened in the past though not easy, should remain in the past!

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

When God created u He never saw any of ur describtion u r mensionig.when u allow the devil to feel u with negative ideas then afterol he is happy toucharing u.Hear me out,u need to know how wonderful,nice sweet,beautiful ur.what u feel is just an obstacle to block ur destiny.In life when u think positively then u will become positive figure.ijust see the positive side o u,not the negative part of it.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

The only problem you have is that you imagine everybody is happier than you. You’ve never been them they will never be you. Just celebrate the person you are and your uniqueness. Stop blaming anybody for anything and begin to celebrate your existence. You are who you are never will there be anyone like you. You’re fearfully and wonderfully made. Be positive and stop benchmarking your happiness with others opinions. Let nobody define you but define yourself.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

What You feel about yourself is normal because of negative perception about yourself. You are suffering from low self-esteem. Your hubby cheats on you coz he is a cheat, not because you are ugly. If you blv that you are ugly then that’s how you look and vice versa. Getting mad at your mum won’t solve anything, you aren’t a perfect mother either. Get a counselor in public hospital to help you out beautiful woman. All the best.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

It all starts with you then us. You’re in denial stage. Get to acceptance stage and you’ll rise up again. When you accept yourself and your difficult situation, you’re good to stand up a strong woman. The worst already happened and when you think of rising up from that state of being less is when you’ll gain strength to work harder and get some cash for a counselor and a surgery. Don’t lose hope. Your coming up to express your problem is the start of your healing… Hugs mum.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

All this is about attitude. Love yourself first.You are wonderfully made and this is evident coz your husband set his eyes on you.Don’t kill yourself thinking that you are not good for him.Accept that he’s a cheat and move on.Concentrate on improving your self for you but not for him.Be a prayerful woman,cry to God ,give thanks for everything, there’s so much to thank God for,analyse every positive thing about you.I know you are beautiful in one way or the other.Your heart maybe very beautiful. Your short temper may be as a result of the attitude you have towards yourself. Find something to do,maybe charity work and you will find your worth.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

Psychiatrists are in all government hospitals from level 2 upwards. Visit them. I had psychological problems before bt am now as gd as new. FGM wasn’t your fault. Don’t Blame yourself. Your skin might even b better than myn bt rem you are wonderfully created in God’s image no matter what. Others don’t have those legs that u don’t appreciate. Try n love your body and soul. If models n celebrities are cheated on,who are we? Don’t try to judge your mother. She might b innocent in all ways; pressure, ignorance. Who knows? Again I say: love yourself.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

How dare you call yourself ugly when you are fearfully and wonderfully made in image and likeness of God???? Start by loving yourself first, be proud of who you are, declare you are blessed, you more than a conquerer , see yourself beautiful n unique, start speaking good things to yourself you will slowly starting seeing changes God is ready to bless you, favor you, and show you his goodness n loving kindness all you need is to activate them through actions and behavior stay blessed n know that God loves you Soo very much in fact more than you can imagine 💓😍😍

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

My dear don’t stress yourself because of these sons of Adam they are cheats.There are women with 1meter long clitoris 😃😃but their men still cheat on them. We live this life once don’t waste your precious life blaming that which you cannot change. Your husband is out there enjoying you’re busy killing yourself with useless thoughts. Wake up my dear you are precious that’s y he chose you in the first place.Tell jesus everything wake up every morning remind you that it’s you who was chosen by him love yourself and others will love you back

Penina
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

To start with the Bible says “what a man thinketh so he is” counseling start with self acceptance. First accept who you are with all the weakness you have, two, make God your best friend, 3 three, don’t open up too much to people who don’t care, and finally think positive about yourself and get to understand challenges are part and parcel of life.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

First of all forgive your mum for forgiveness is divine, You are not the first one to face FGM, others have too and they are not behaving the way you do, Before you expect love from someone love yourself , when you say you are ugly, you are saying God is ugly because he created you in His own image, you can do something about your dental formula by seeing a dentist, you can also make your skin glow by eating plenty of fruits and mboga, drinking enough water, and applying the right lotions, stop being quarrelsome, love your hubby there Is something he saw in you and that’s why he married you, make your home a happy place by being happy, help yourself by being positive too much negativity is toxic to a relationship and your body, bond with your mum and forgive her, see a counselor

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

Hello u need a good councillor like the citam but unfortunately na hii corona u might not find them. If ur hubby married u its bcoz he saw something good In u that attracted him… Fgm was normal among some African traditionals how could ur mum in the whole community exclude u from doing it? When if u could not have gone through it would it change the ugly staffs u c in urself?u need just some slight changes to keep u goi g n that is loving urself.. If u live along thika road inbox I walk with u through this journey. Ur English is sweet r u learned?

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:21

You’ll be surprised after you realize everything has always happened for a reason. A good reason.
@acemytin-Telegram

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