Confession #797

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I met this guy in church, he was the praise and worship leader. He was fun and loving. We went out for a few dates after church. He then said he would like to visit my house.

We made plans, I told him on a certain Sunday, my daughter would be away, she was 6 years then and I didnt want her to see me with any man until I was in a committed relationship possibly leading to holy matrimony as I had given my life to Jesus, and I was committed to live a life of sexual purity.

So on that Sunday, we came home I offered him a soda, my house girl was around. So the man gave her some money and sent her to the supermarket to buy some things. I excused myself to go to the bedroom to change from the church clothes to a dera.

My bedroom door was closed not locked when I heard someone get in. It was him. I was naked and tried to grab some clothes, this man is well over 6feet , he grabbed me , choked me and pushed me on the floor , l couldn’t scream, and he had his way with me on the floor of my bedroom.

He zipped up and said that was my punishment for tempting him. He left me on the floor , crying. I showered and showered after that, I have never told anyone. I left church and my faith had never been the same again

Did l tempt him? I invited him to my house? Why does it feel like its still my fault? Was I raped? why do I feel guilty still?

June 11, 2020 |
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2021-01-13 21:31:34

I wish you should share with the pastor or a trusted ally at the church since this beast will do the same to another woman/ prey of his. To avoid the same to others, we need to point them out. How I wish you hadn’t taken a shower for him to rot in jail.
It pains me when a woman is taken as an object for sex especially forceful, it sucks. Appreciate who you are despite all this
1. You never tempted him
2. You shouldn’t be guilty about what you never expected to happen.
3. That’s a rapist who takes advantage of naive women in church.
4. Keeping quiet won’t help
#ongea

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2021-01-13 21:31:34

Is there a Legal centre dedicated to Fighting for this Women?? Because I cant imagine how many women suffer in silence.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:34

My heart pains from this…
You did nothing wrong sweetheart…
He is just the devil incarnation pure evil…
Hugs 😔😔😔😔😔

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:34

You didn’t tempt him he had it all schemed even flipping it on you..too late you should have reported immediately when it happened but one thing for sure get rid of the guilt first.so sorry it happened that way.

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