Confession #3829

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I’m 30 years old, mom of 2. My hubby is my campus sweetheart. We’ve been together for almost 10 years now. He was my bestfriend and the love of my life. But the thing is, as the years went by, it almost seems like the spark between us just went away with it as well.

The passion between us, is just not there anymore, and basically both of us just stopped putting in the effort to keep the fire burning. That fire that was once so consuming, is now barely even a flame. But, it’s more him than me. I mean, I try sometimes to be romantic and sh*t but nothing gets reciprocated, even after talking about it a million times. Eventually I just got tired.

Sometimes I feel like we got together too early in our lives, and the fact that I got pregnant early as well, did not help at all.

I most times also feel regretful, and I miss my solitude and independence. I feel trapped. It’s a good thing I’m not claustrophobic, coz Gurlllll…..

SZA explains this feeling so well in her song ‘Hate You’. It’s like, she’s singing about me…you know? I don’t know…

Anyways, since I’m not getting the attention that a woman needs from my man, the green of the grass on the other side just starts to seem too damn captivating.

I’ve come across people, men and women who seem so much more interesting and fun and some of them have expressed their romantic desires for me. And honestly, I’ve felt those desires too.

I don’t know what to do, it’s hard to leave. 10 years is alot of time, and investment put into something or someone. But on the other hand, I want to have my life back so much, it’s crazy.

Is this the rest of my life? What do I do?

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Skyy

December 5, 2022 |
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2022-12-14 12:48:43

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2022-12-06 04:55:30

Just woke at at 7:55am and read your post, this is the best advice am giving you, stop talking (complaining) to him about your relationship eat good, dress, well, be busy with you daily routine just ignore him in general , he will notice the new you and feel so jealous and start loving you show him you strongness not weakness we men get so suspicious of our partners when the environment / attitude changes. Let's privately talk in t.me/mbuzikuku

Anonymous
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2022-12-05 22:21:36

Try a certified marriage counselor it might help. If it goes tities up. You have a clear concious you tried.

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