Confession #871

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So, am i the only one who feels things aint just working🤦‍♀️….i have tried suicide twice,not now but generaly in my 27yrs of life.am 27 with a kid,baby daddy passed back in 2013.No proper education,no proper papers,no job,no income.no boyfriend or even someone who is serious with me.am not that beautiful and not endorwed,niko tu nakaa tu vile nataka.my self esteem is always 0% and the men i sometimes date always leave after wamepata lightskin or a beautiful girl..i have a good heart but always wonder why men dont just love me🤦‍♀️been bullied since primary school due to my dark complexion and “sura mbaya”…
Sometimes i wonder if God was ever fair at all…kupea mtu all the negative package😪i know i should be greatful that am alive but whats the reason of living when everyday reminds you of how a failure you are both in life and whatever.sometimes i wish i could be love.dont say about parents because my relationship with my parent is a distance one.they dont care wao pia wako tu.to make it was they are always on your neck to get married🤦‍♀️sometimes i wish i could go away and never come back🤦‍♀️ to just disappear.currently no job for the past 3 months,rent sina,bills ndizo izo,no food basically i just feel exhausted already…i really wanted to vent and am glad i found this group.please no one should judge me unless i give you my shoe you wear it and tranna walk in them first.its hard getting rejected alwys and no progress in life.just stuck🤦‍♀️😪😭😭.honestly sometimes love can make someone stronger.like just knowing that there is someone somwhere who cares,can go along way….am currently tranna be strong for my Son though🤦‍♀️

June 27, 2020 |
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

You’re beautiful & wonderfully made, love youself more, try to look for something to do or to keep you busy, not a must to go with papers to look for employment, do casual jobs even washing for people to make sure you put a meal on the table for you & your kid, others wil come when time is right, rem God promised not to leave us nor forsake us. Be strong & pray more

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Find something to do,anza na bizna ata kama ni ya kibanda, I was once there,when u will be busy hutakuwa na time ya kujidharau,love urself na wenye walisema ww n sura mbaya they will come begging for your help,don’t mind about what people say,focus on what God is saying about your life

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

God loves you. He created you and I in His own Image. So the devil is a liar to tell you you are not beautiful. You are loved by God an MD that is why you are alive to-date. Wake up and start believing in yourself. You are wonderfully made two hands and legs to go wherever you want. Some do not have those even eyes, ears and they still love and believe in themselves.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

hey!!! probably m ua twin in the all that u have said,i too tryd succide 3tyms bt God showed me that i have a purpose in this world by engaging me in an accident a fatal one that my headbroke n glasses entered in plus vyuma vya gari,an all in all God woke me up, i believe am strong n i have a purpose , God has not let my son to sleep hungry,though i dont have rent same twe am always greatful each n every moment ,i left to a far place away from home insearch of peace,i dont need fraudy lovers i have learned alot from them,wat u need is peace of mynd my dear n not love,its hard to get true love with ua low selfesteem coz u are always feeling unworthy,bt pray to God 4 peace n make a move ,av lykd u am only 22 yrs

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Deal with this atitude of negativity first.
Blieve in yourself n love yourself.when you love yourself you definetly take good care of yourseld, and the rest as they say will be a history.
Improve on your selfesteem by blieving you are good,beuriful,n capable of making super changes within yourself

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Everyone is special in her/his own way ..that was my life but I leaned to love me n my kids n God …in that way he opened way …in my 35th yr he blessed me with a husband who loves my three kids n me more despite of me having black birthmarks allover my face ….when I walk with him nobody believes he is my hubby hata relaz coz I was living in my cacoon as u are not being loved by anyone rejected…but who is God he proved me wrong…he made him see my inner beauty..what am trying to say is quit impressing anyone jipende n your son raise your head high love God n he shall surprise you

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Don’t degrade urself 🌹 can you change ur mindset first know one should write ur story in the heart or rub rather that you n have in mind that what you speak that u become a 👅 has power,not to late prophesy for ur life,things change but u need to trust too

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

All that is in your mind.Try to accept n love yourself the way you are.Pray n make your maker(God) a friend.Transfoem your mind. Don’t be so harsh on yourself.Pray against rejection its a spirit that can destroy you.May God give you n show you his strength n love.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

My sister always remember that God’s time is always the best
No matter what you r going, passing through,b faithful and thankful. Remember God loves u forever thus why u r still living, jifunze kuwa mtulivu
Mungu atakutendea nawe hutaamini
B.patient

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

First love yourself learn to thank God for the life he has given you then be positive in anything you are doing God is going to do wonders

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Start by accepting yourself, love n appreciate your own self. No woman is useless, youre the work of Gods hands. Believe, trust in Him. A gurduan angel is on the way….

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Love yourself first dear.ur ere fearfully n wonderful made,never act like ur desperate for men ur good package husband will come at God tym mum if uko nai cm nikupe kibanda uanze job . may divine favour allocate u in Jesus name

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

You went to school though,your grammar is pretty good…. believe in yourself,God always an I mean ALWAYS comes through……if for 27years you been hanging in there,just a little while longer…. you’re almost there…..love will find you just the way you are,n so much peace be upon your heart,I pray.👏

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

You attract who you are. If you hate and reject yourself those vibes are felt by whoever you are with and they in turn do the same. Love yourself. Affirm yourself. Write self affirmations and repeat them out loud..like, I am beautiful, I am a great mum, I am worthy of love , first you will feel like it’s fake but by and by it will be real because we believe our own voices. Repeat every day… i am a child of God, i am not a mistake etc..

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

You are destinied to prosper,Its not all about beauty ,,,the best thing is that you are healthy,,and everyone is beautiful,,,it’s a stage you are passing,,and God has something in store for you,,,just appreciate yourself,accept your situation,,and leave the rest to God,,at least you have a son and he sees you as an Angel ,,please love yourself first don’t loose hope,,,

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Sometimes they are curses bestowed on you that even if you try better you’ll NEVER succeed like they Just follow you up.
My dear rejection is real…and one thing that overcomes all this are prayers.
Prayers will make you stronger.
Prayers will open every door.
Prayers will bring you Joy/happiness.
Prayers will make the impossible to possible…..
Just pray and you’ll be strong again.peace be with you 🙏🙏

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

1st of all raise yourself esteem to at least 25% 2ndly appreciate your sura n love it,how do we love you when you hate yourself, the worst of all you hate God,wewe umeumbwa kwa mfano wa Mungu so na uhate sura yako ….. pple have have clean paper in their houses when it comes to education but haziwasaidii … Thank God for what you have today and learn to be positive.mama I wish you well

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

I am truly sorry for what you are going through. Never care what people think of you, Only God opinion matters and he loves you too much. Seek the kingdom of God and the rest shall be added to you. At 27 you are still young have faith in God all will be well.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Stop being sorry about your looks!!sio wewe ulijiumba,,love yourself ,,tafuta kazi hata kama ni ya hoisehelp

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Accept the world around u in all means.jikubali ,jipende just the way u r my dear.u knows what God knows the purpose for being in that situation
Look at ur fingers do they have the same size????.mmmmmmh
The same way our lives is. Our pocket is our age is.mmmmmh.
Love yourself the way u r.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

I care and you are not alone .your English is superb btw and you seem like someone with a good heart.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

ok may be people don’t love you but you need to love yourself fist. treat yourself like a queen. and the lest will fall into place ok

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Be strong for your son. He still needs you. Love yourself my dear.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

irst of all I nid to love urself first that will give u strength to continue n then keep God closer n all will fall into place DNT loose hope in God’s eyes ur very beautiful

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Now let’s focus on the positive side, you are breathing, you are healthy not in any medication, you have a son so you are not burren, 🤔wait you have a natural skin black you call it if I may ask you umewai ona mtu amechomeka hana io skin unacomplain iko black, stand on ua feet mum you said you have a big heart but u don’t love uaself??? How now, do u expect love from others yet u hate uaself this much? Jipende oga jipake mafuta smile to uaself be happy focus on what you have n more be strong in the Lord. Be a giver of love n not a begger of love your child should know how strong you are don’t you be deceive that you have to be lightskinned to be beautiful. Beauty is in the heart

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

My dear there is some one who is in love with you and He will never leave you no matter what and that is Jesus Christ, trust in Him and remember you are fearfully and wonderfully made, God will provide for you what you need is to ask him and have faith in Him, why commit suicide and yet God has given you life to live so that one day it will be a testimony, don’t lose hope call Him, ask Him,trust and have Faith in Him all will be okay,May our Merciful Lord hear your prayers and remember that child is a blessing, God has kept you there to protect and provide for that child, Remember you have afriend who cannot leave you that is Jesus Christ the King of Kings,be blessed

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

You need to be positive , you r beautiful , you r worthy , you have value , love yourself first , you r the best endowed or not , positive affirmations , trust in God he has a plan for you .

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Read psalm 139. Then you need to love yourself and do self care and be able to experience the love of God in fullness with love of God u don’t need any affirmation from anyone

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Nobody is ugly just look for something productive work on yourself and the right man will come along the way

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Be positive my dear sister,love urself n remember there is someone called Jesus Christ,call unto Him n He will come to ur rescure,u are still alive for apurpose

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Don’t look down upon yourself.
Make an opportunity out of your current situation to beat this esteem issue you have.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Your major problem from what I read here is low self esteem… Acha kujidharau you’re God’s own handwork, stop thinking about the negative things that people said about you, stop comparing yourself with others, and above of all, stop being bitter with God for He is your friend not your enemy, I pray you understand that. Another thing you need to know, life is not easy, people are going through issues too, worse issues I tell you, but we just trust God to make it better for us. You’re talking of kuachwa with 1kid, no job for 3months… My dear, me niliachwa with 4kids, with no job for so many years but nilikuambia the things that God has done for me during this time, utashangaa. God is merciful, He’s ready to help you out of your situation only if you believe Him and have the right attitude towards Him and life in general. God works well with people in your situation (rejected and lonely), to make His power manifest to the world, for His own Glory, so, just start by finding peace

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

love urself first. No one is ugly in this world coz we were created by the same God. We are all the same before Him. Always whisper a prayer to God & tell Him all that’s in ur heart. I blive ur day will come & all ur sorrows will be a past tense..

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Start by loving and appreciating yourself and everything will fall into place.God didn’t create anyone beautiful that the others,we are equal in God’s eye and we were made in God image and likeness.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

my siz stop complaining coz God hard reazons and many as you can’t see but all you sapost to do give thanks to God for far that he has reached you but stop complaining that you are agle remember that God made us with his own image so you look like our creater wait and see his wonders and miracle that he can do luck you you got all part of the body some are lucking one of them but still not asking for more but the breath that God give them so give thanks first and let others complain comes later be happy God love you coz he give you air everyday so siz have patient God will work it out through are regrets plz sawa

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:38

Dear.the Lord I with you.you are no a mistake.you are special even if you look around you will never get some one like you.love your self the way you are ,dress well.be positive at heart and all this will start by praying to our invisible Father The Hears.

Anonymous
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2021-01-13 21:31:37

Be strong Mami… most people go through alot and I bet you are beautiful…we all have esteem issues at times but maybe true love will find you..if not..just love you and be there for your son ❤️

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